The Constant Equation


We’re all hypocrites, but that’s not exactly a bad thing. Actually, it’s the only TRUE thing. The inherent ‘nature’ of everything (all this infinitely relative diverse stuff) is hypocritical. Matter ‘contradicts’ other matter; doesn’t matter if it is similar (my twin, although ‘like’ me is NOT me, he exists AWAY from me in another body) or completely different; all matter possesses a fundamental difference as every piece of matter is ‘other than’ another piece of matter. Of course there’s a twist to this: Constant contradiction cancels itself out, it means everything is differently the same—infinite fundamental difference becomes infinite fundamental sameness (∞ = ∞) which creates this tail-eating absurdity…

    We live in a world of zero absolutes—or zero 1s. But look around…ONES are ALL you see—an endless sea of absolutely defined objects. This shouldn’t be possible! There should be no-THING here, not even space to accommodate the matter. But then again…

    The fact that there are ABSOLUTELY zero absolutes IS an absolute itself! However…since this truth is made up of a mess of bullshit it’s not really A thing—just parts masquerading as a whole; only absolute in theory, not in reality, but look… Look at all this stuff… Infinite undeniable whole 1s… Everywhere!

…and around and around the circle of perception we go. Almost seeing things for what they are and then suddenly blinded by smoke and mirrors. Like literal smoke and mirrors. Well, semi-literal smoke and mirrors: By ‘smoke’ I mean matter and by ‘mirrors’ I mean the method in which we perceive said matter: we relate everything to ourselves.

It seems as if we are being purposely held in a state of (perhaps blissful?) relative ignorance. We are ‘allowed’ to experience only a few layers of our world (even when using amazing tools of sensory enhancement). But would we even want ‘infinite sense?’ That shit would be crazy. Overwhelming. I think I’m cool with just being an imperfect being incapable of absolute perception…doomed to live a narrowly relative life—a complete and utter lie: Our brains conspire with our senses and the world around us to create a virtual fantasy land for us to spend our waking days. For example, right now I’m in what seems to be a very still room; only action coming from a couple fans—one in the window, the other inside my PC. But the reality of this room is far busier (inconceivably so). Every single thing is evolving, changing—both animate and inanimate objects. But I cannot see this even though it is happening all around me!

Guess I’m just going to have to reconcile with not-knowing. But does anyONE know? Is there any ONE thing capable of perceiving the infinite multidimensional nature of the universe? Someone or something that is on OUR side? Why am I even pondering such questions? Why would such a being even be considered necessary? Do we come pre-programmmed with a desire to create lies about our existence? What is the survival-of-the-fittest reason for god delusions? To compensate for the gaps in our perception? To provide comfort when we are alone? A kind of protection? If that’s the case then that is some pretty cool shit. Also, the god delusion being deeply ingrained in our psyche (part of our genetic code) does nothing to DISPROVE its divine possibilities. Matter of fact, the more we sterilize it, the more we reduce it, the more we try to explain it away the more divine it becomes. Due to the simple fact that we are acknowledging it as real! It doesn’t matter if we perceive this reality as cold biological code, the fact that it IS something IS something. It is not an answer, but another exciting clue. There are always MORE layers of smoke and mirrors. More ‘room’ for god possibilities. The delusion is quite strong. It will always find a way to keep itself deeply ingrained.

Curiosity is infinite.

But then again…


There is an infinity of relatively diverse things all around us (including us); all composed of an infinity of other relatively diverse things, but what are we SUPPOSED to do with all of it? Take from it? Add to it? How much do we take away? How much do we add? Hell, how much is ‘much?’ I may think I’m adding, but you may think I’m taking away. Truth is: whatever we ‘take’ remains and the things we ‘add’ are nothing but syntheses of what already was. So if we want to determine how much ‘much’ is we have to FORCE quantification, round up to the nearest what-it-seems-like (read: bullshit ourselves).

Our high tech personal communication/computing devices are wrought from reconfigured plant and dirt molecules—they only ‘seem like’ phones/tablets/laptops/PCs; they’re really so much more. The names we apply to things are just futile quantifiers, for some reason we feel the need to quantify a universe that defies our quantification attempts at every turn; and it does so in the most subtle of ways: We eat an apple and we think we have removed it from the universe, but all we’ve really done is reconfigure it. It STILL exists in the same place (infinite space)…and once it leaves our bodies it will SSSTTTIIIIIIILLLLLL be in the same place, just reconfigured. Which means we ain’t really doing much of anything.

Sounds disconcerting, until you realize…

Reconfiguring stuff is kinda fun and there is a ton of shit out there for us to mess with so let’s mess with it; have a’little fun while we’re here. But then again…

Are we SUPPOSED to have fun in/with the world? Seems like most of the things we find fun others find bad…and HAVE BEEN finding bad for a very long time. But what IS so bad about them? Why do we demonize fun? Are we inherently masochistic? Also, how much wrong can we do until we are no longer CONSIDERED right? There’s probably no way to answer that as no on knows how much ‘much’ is?


What if I split myself into three distinct beings? A GOOD one, a BAD one and the REAL one—a neutralized version of me who goes wherever GOOD and BAD tell him to go. This way I can perform absurd intellectual stunts like eagerly anticipating the commitment of an ‘act of sin’ while just as eagerly praying (or hoping) for the strength to fight the temptation that will lead to the commitment of said act.


BAD1 goes out of his way to please us while GOOD1 passive-aggressively supervises. He doesn’t really do much; he’s just there to make sure things don’t get out of hand (he claims to know how much ‘much’ is). Once BAD gets us to the too-much point GOOD tosses what he calls an ‘invisibility cloak’ over BAD. Hides him from our view. Now we can carry on like he doesn’t exist. But this is only a temporary fix. Eventually BAD gets restless and pops up from underneath the ‘cloak’—which was really just a damn blanket—much to our relief! We’ve missed him. Things were getting boring without him. GOOD1 sees our joy, gets jealous, tries to kill BAD. Doesn’t work, BAD just pops right back up. He ain’t goin’ nowhere.

So now what? How can we reconcile with BAD1’s constant presence? Maybe by not DEMONIZING him so damn much. Remember, he wasn’t bad until GOOD1 said so. That means we THOUGHT we were doing good the whole time until we found out we weren’t! But how does GOOD know what’s ‘good’ for us? And why’d he wait so damn long to say anything? GOOD might just hate BAD because he has all the fun. Maybe he just wanted some attention. Damn. Looks like we’re mixing up the ‘roles.’ If we’re gonna split ourSELVES into diametrically opposed beings they need to STAY diametrically opposed beings. No merging rationales. Maybe we should make them real. Yeah, that’ll work, probably be a lot easier to disassociate ourselves from ourselves then…

Awesome. We can breathe a sigh of relief now. We’ve manifested our internal cast of motley fools onto the physical land. We now have anchors. Something to hold us in a place while we wander through space.

Some may think I’m trying to disprove the existence of God(s) with these posts. On the contrary, I’m actually trying to PROVE that EVERYTHING (their stories, their look) about them comes from a very REAL place. Now here’s the hip part: We can GO to this real place by simply asking ourselves a few questions. The following one works VERY well…


Ask this when you wanna cut through the bullshit and get some answers you can apply to your life RIGHT NOW! (it’s kinda like prayer) But you MUST be real with yourself. Try closing your eyes and sitting in a quiet room. This helps to eliminate a TON of relative distractions. The more distractions you eliminate the better. Or…

You can ‘add’ some distractions. Beautiful distractions

It’s no wonder some of our greatest artistic, architectural and mathematical achievements come from institutions that stake their claim on providing a place for followers of the ‘split-self concept’ to gather and receive counsel. These long-standing (really ‘long-supported’) institutions have seen—and documented the cases of—several iterations of self-splitters so we trust their guidance. Plus, we are eager to relieve ourselves of the moral ambiguity we feel when we try to play GOOD1/BAD1 by ourselves. The split-self institutes have all sorts of information on how to ‘properly’ force quantify yourself. And they were created and/or around the ONLY ‘time God was real on Earth.’ During the time of our ancestors! The chosen people!

Let me slow down. I’m worshiping time again. Goin’ all ra-ra-sis-boom-bah for the old shit and shittin’ on the relatively new shit like Scientology and Jediism because I know too many intimate details about their origins. But not to worry newfangled religions, time—our favorite and most trusted god—will wash all those pesky little details away, leaving behind nothing but the surreal, absurd other-worldliness of your vision. Yes, when we evaporate into the infinite ether your vision (universal texture maps) will evaporate along with us, but not the VERY REAL THING you were interpreting.

It ALWAYS remains.

‘It’ is ‘the moment.’ The framework facilitating the incessant stream of change swirling about. Nothing can hold on to it. Not even our recording devices, they only capture facsimiles of the moment; reflections that lack its true infinite relative density. This is the world where we find/found our gods. And as long as we are here in this configuration our gods will be here with us. In this regard they are very real. As far as that other stuff about them: the possibility of their actual ‘on Earth’ existence, the extraordinary stories—don’t know how we could ever know the truth about any of that. We have no requisite knowledge of the type of phenomena that they were capable of (may explain why we believe the ancients were chosen; they got to SEE all the crazy shit) other than what we see in movies, dreams, books, art (each of these looks to the others for ‘inspiration’). If a real-life ‘biblical’ event happened and it looked contrary to what is stored in our requisite ‘extraordinary imagery’ bank it would look foreign to us. Alien. We probably wouldn’t even be able to SEE it. It would be visibly invisible (like the world depicted here)…and therefore would not warrant our attention, we don’t have time for foolishness like ‘invisible visions,’ we’re too hung up on the visibly visible…


Find a mirror. Stare into that bitch. As you stare imagine your visage transforming into your antithesis, your starkest (known) contrast. For example: if you are an extremely dark-skinned person imagine an extremely light-skinned person. Now it is VERY possible (like 100% likely) that someone who looked just like this ‘anti-you’ was partly responsible for you being able to stand in front of a mirror and see ANYTHING at all. It’s also possible that they might hate your guts…if they could see you. But here’s the cool bit: They CAN’T see you. They can only BE you…with an ill little flip: Because they can no longer SEE themselves or you, they are FINALLY ‘allowed’ to BE ‘just’ themselves. The traits are no longer being filtered through their race, religion, culture, et cetera—in a sense they have been purified. No longer tainted by all those tenuous superficial relative distinctions. But then again…

What are YOU doing with these traits? Are you filtering them through your own relative distinctions? Of course you are! You’re taking the INFINITY of muthafuckas living INSIDE of you and forcing them to be ONE thing!

How did curiosity evolve? It is a nature that is consistently counter to whatever its environment presents. That means it must remain infinitely relative, forever obscure (a constant anarchist). Therefore it is a nature that CANNOT have evolved into being, like the infinite mess of bullshit AROUND(π!!!) it does. It is the driving force behind evolution. Just look around and note the diversely ‘curious’ ways in which matter adapts and reflects its environment.

I once thought that I could eliminate certain qualities about myself if I disassociated from the people that enabled such qualities. I later found this to be complete bullshit. Case in point: Although an addict can benefit from disassociating him/herself from those who enable their addiction, it is the addictive nature that MUST be addressed (really ‘questioned’). We cannot run from ourselves. When the bullshit fades, it is always US who remain. And if we don’t address (question) us we’re gonna end up doing the same damn thing over and over again. Just forcing splits left an’ right. So just slow down, reflect, ask yourself: “Why am I demonizing me?! Why do I think I need saving from myself?” We can’t HELP who we are. We’ve ALWAYS been who we are. It’s kinda fucked up that we think we are cursed from birth! Why would a LOVING GOD lay such’a heavy burden like that on us? Actually, why do we BELIEVE a loving God would lay a burden like that on us? You know what…I don’t wanna believe it. Actually, I REFUSE to believe it.

Real people are killed for what they believe in everyday. Some call these people martyrs, some consider them villains (these figures are ALWAYS divisive). We can debate the ‘nature’ of the beliefs they hold; whether they’re ‘right’ or ‘wrong,’ but we cannot DENY the reality of the men and women who devote their LIVES to things that don’t REALLY exist. Invisible visions.

All of our art, our culture, our religions, our everything comes from the same place. The concept that things change in an A-to-B fashion is simply that—a concept. It is only real in a relative sense. In ‘reality’ Christianity and Scientology didn’t evolve in chronological order, they EVOLVE at different relative points within the infinite moment. They are MADE real BECAUSE OF relativity, but not really because— Damn it, you know where this is going already.

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